Dear Me,
Aren’t you happy getting a love letter? Let me first begin by wishing you a very Happy 40th birthday. I know that age is just a number and the thought of being over the hill has crossed your mind a few times :). Ah well, but you know what, I know you wouldn’t trade a single experience in your life to be younger again. You are comfortable, secure and happy with the choices you’ve made these last years. I know your conscience rests easy. I know you are happy with the life you’ve lived, the dreams you’ve realized, the love you’ve shared and the happiness you’ve created and been a part of.
From that rugged birthmark on your thumb to your knobbly fingers, I love every bit of you. Do you remember how much you laughed and then cried while you were watching the baby videos of your sons despite not being a person who tears up easily? You love deeply and passionately. You do get mad when rubbed the wrong way, but well you are human. You set high standards for your own self. From supporting a cause to protecting an animal, you do what your heart tells you is correct.
What I admire most about you is how you bend over backwards for what you truly believe in. You reach out to people, checking on them, truly caring for their wellbeing. You will stay up late to help someone in need. Hey, you will sometimes protect the kiddos from daddy’s ire and vice versa :). You love a good conversation and can be preachy as well (the family will concur!). But, then you have never felt apologetic for your values or morals.
I love how you have acquired so many fascinating dimensions over the years. From an impulsive, opinionated, academic girl to a confident, well-read, empathetic woman, you’ve come a long way. You are calmer, open to knowledge and change and that keeps you evolving as a person. Always stay this way.
You’ve lived life on your own terms. A lot of it was because of this great stroke of luck as you were blessed with amazing parents who helped you fly. It is not to say that you did not suffer hardships while growing up. Nevertheless, you made the best of the freedom, values and the opportunities that came your way. Losing your mother was very hard on you. I know even after so many years, you yearn for her presence. But you’ve remembered to keep her ideals and passions alive. For you, family is paramount.
You have chosen well when you found a life partner. Through you, I’ve noticed that there is a “leap of faith” that one has to take when one gets into a committed relationship. And you’ve done that with complete honesty. You work hard at your relationships trusting the people behind them, accepting their flaws and working on your own because you need that and they need that. You are no saint, but you have tried to be good and right.
You have also worked hard to respect and cherish your body. The same body that made you breeze through two pregnancies and allowed you to bounce back into shape. You are today happy with the few wrinkles, a little extra flab and some dark circles because you recognize how special and valuable a healthy body is. Moreover, you bestow upon it the love it deserves.
You are scared, almost petrified of disease. Having seen a lot of it around you in your early years, you are sometimes paranoid about staying healthy. You try to tone that down by meditating and doing Yoga. I love that you introspect from time to time being as unbiased as possible about your own self. It helps you stay real.
You have cultivated your interests. You’ve never hesitated in speaking your mind. You give it your all to raise wonderful children and be a good decent human being.
Yes, you are wonderful. Always remember that!
My wish for you is to stay healthy, happy and continue to live your life mindfully.
With loads of love,
Rachna







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